Can't seem to find a happy medium on my billing, maybe someone has an idea...

Greetings yall, my name's Jay and I an dealing with some health issues that are quite serious.  I have Chronic Heart Failure, and sometimes it can wipe me fout for weeksat a time.  I literally lose my breathe getting dressed.  Makes life very difficult.  So here how it affescts me with Adobe.  Some months, I may be able to work and develop my projects heck, seven days a week.... and other times, like this past month, I haven't been able to get online at all really.  Is there some kind of billing that could adapt to my use?  My main program I want to use and learn is Premiere, so end of day out the door I'm paying $55 a month for something I may or may not use.  Anyone remember the good ol days were things weren't leased out like this?  Guess we shouda realized out good we had it.... Anywyas, anyone know of any solutions for me?  A handicapped/diasbled deal or something what not?  I don't mind paying but at the end of the day I don't wann feel stuck.  And afrter awhile of feeling like this I just loose all my creative juice at all and shrugs...  

just lounging;) hop everyone is safe and smart.

may your path be light & lit,

jaYMan